A New Beginning
“This is the most significant conversation we’ve ever had.”
These are all working titles for the post that I’m working on, which details the conversation that Arwyn and I had last night.
In my last entry, I detailed how I thought we had entered a stage of critical mass. But the next few days, I began to wonder a bit. All the signs were there. We were not sniping. The oscillations had stopped. The criticism was barely even there. The entire marriage had quieted to a point where it seemed too quiet. I was wavering and buckling, because I could not see where we were headed. It looked like we were stuck and frozen in a place that seemed to be even beyond gridlock. But I continued to work on this just a bit, especially the “hugging until relaxed” exercise. Subsequent applications of this were more successful than my initial efforts. Eyes open kissing was something I also tried but as that got better, I would always get to a point where I would close my eyes because I wanted to better feel the growing connection. But we weren’t going anywhere. Not backwards or forwards. I could feel a tectonic shift taking place. We were, indeed, at critical mass.
Last night, the gridlock finally busted loose.