The last day of a long month. Made so much longer by the fact that my attempts to connect with Arwyn has resulted no sexual encounters of any kind in this month. Zero. Nada. Nil. Zilch. Zip. Not even one handjob.
Being married to a sexual anorexic is the shits. Perhaps I’m better off in the long run since I am atoning for my sins in this life so I can enjoy the next. When thinking about Heaven I’ve often wondered what it would be like. It has been described as the most wonderous place beyond all imagination. Better that an orgasm. Can you imagine? Experiencing that oneness with our chosen mate is God’s gift to us, and is just a small speck of what lies ahead if we can just persevere. Imagine how so many of us jeopardize our salvation in pursuit of these little specks of Heaven like chasing fireflies when the True Light is waiting. Fireflies whose light goes out moments after catching them. Heaven is one eternal orgasm that never ends. Christians don’t normally use such language when describing the other side, but maybe they should. Islamists offer 70 virgins to men for blowing themselves (along with innocent women and children) up and cutting off the heads of infidels and they seem to have an abundance of volunteers. Maybe offering an eternal orgasm would have broader appeal, especially in conjunction with doing kind, right and proper things.
I’m supposed to be teaching a Sunday School lesson to our adult class of couples our age. We rotate teaching and teachers, and next week is my week. The topic of the season is the Beattitudes, and I drew Matthew 5:5, othwewise known as “Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.”
What do you think of when you think of the meek? Are you meek? Is being meek a good thing? How would you feel if people thought of you as a meek person?
If you’re like me, you probably think meek is weak. It is a weak-sounding word. It rhymes with weak, squeak, geek and freak. Not exactly a very noble association of descriptors there. Being known as a meek person hardly seems very complimentary. But maybe by the end of this entry you can see that it is not only a noble thing to be meek, but desirable and powerful.
Jesus didn’t expand much on this verse, but He didn’t have to. The full and entire text of this thought is found in Psalm 37. There, we can see that meek is not weak. Go ahead, crack open that Bible. Find that Psalm. In it we find a comparison of the virtuous with the unvirtuous. The righteous with the unrighteous. The good with the wicked. Six times in chapter 37 we see the meek inheriting the earth. The psalmist does not always use the word meek, but the theme is consistent throughout. The meek shall inherit the earth while the wicked will be cut off.
The 37th Psalm speaks of the wicked lying in wait and persecuting those who are righteous. It speaks of those who are righteous taking their refuge in the strength of the Lord. Consider this:
If you are going to inherit something, you have to survive. You have to endure. You have to wait. These are the virtues talked about in Psalm 37 and brought up by Jesus. Jesus was reminding His listeners (and us) that it is worth the wait, the struggle and the pain. It is the wicked who live for the moment and the day by stealing, robbing and otherwise victimizing others. And God assures us that they will NOT inherit anything but grief in the end.
In order to be meek, one must be patient, one must persevere and one must have faith. Patience, perseverence and faithfulness are the hal marks of the meek. These are not weak things. These are characteristics that describe the most powerful force on the planet. The force of water.
Water seemingly gives way to anything that comes in contact with it. You put something in water, and the water yields to it by giving way. Water seems spineless and weak and doesn’t even have a shape of its own. And yet water wears down all mountains and all rocks and turns them to dust. Waves break up all shores and rivers erode every bank they travel through. Not all at once. But over time. Long, steady and unrelenting water does what it does.
This is the strength of the meek. Jesus assured us that it is the meek that are going to be around to inherit the earth. Inherit the earth from whom? From the wicked who are cutting their faces off to spite their noses. If we are going to be meek, we need to understand that we are not to inherit the earth and then cease to be meek, turning into copies of the former lords who knew little humility. The meek are not vanquishing anyone. As it says in Psalm 37, the wicked’s swords and arrows will turn upon themselves. They will stumble over their own pride and vanquish themselves.
Ironically, if I want to learn the power of meekness, my best teacher is Arwyn. Lots of folks have said that they are amazed at how I’ve stuck with her through this, the darkest and lonliest of times. The second I turn my sword upon her is the second I cease to be meek. That does not mean that I shouldn’t offer resistance. It means that I need to maintain my patience, perseverence and faith in the face of this struggle. This is a lesson I could never learn on my own free of conflict and hardship.
“There is a future for the man of peace.” Psalm 37:37
This is a race of endurance, not of speed. I look forward to the lesson being learned that this relationship is one worth fighting for. Not fighting in the sense of returning evil with evil, but of resisting that temptation to abandon it all in favor of starting anew. The psalmist encourages us by offering an inheritance that will endure forever. But to get any inheritance, one needs to stick around. And only the meek have that ability. To be otherwise means to join the wicked.
“Refrain from anger, and turn from wrath; do not fret – it leads only to evil. For the evil will be cut off but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the earth. A little while and the wicked will be no more, though you look for them they will not be found. But the meek will inherit the earth and enjoy great peace.” Psalm 37:8-11
Being meek is the way to go, especially considering the alternative. We live in a world that extolls aggressiveness at the epense of others. The Bible assures us that any gains enjoyed from this are temporary, at best.
I am so far from having this teaching etched on my heart as it should be. But I am in a position to have it eventually chiseled in, bit by bit if I’m willing to endure the temporal pain in order to reap the greater reward.