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Hashing it out

April 21, 2008

Those of you following along know what happened during date night. Those of you who were not following, might want to do so now before proceeding.

Thursday morning, I got up to do my part but Arwyn got up while I was taking my shower and got into the routine of getting the kids off to school. Thursday night, we did talk about it. She reiterated that she was tired, and I understood that, but I told her she could have given me some prior notice rather than leave me hanging right up until the moment in question. She apologized for it and I tried to get across how it really made me feel and truly eroded the trust that we have been building. Yes, she has been trying to do things differently but if the same stuff keeps happening, it looks kind of like that old business as usual. So she suggested we try it again Friday night. I decided we could as I could be in a better spot than right then and there. Talking and hashing it out did help to keep from repressing stuff and carrying it around forever. When a body carries resentment around, it never gets lighter, it only gets heavier no matter how small of an issue it is.

As for me, I had to work on leaving the resentment behind and moving on. That took some work. There was also some talk about the previous encounter where Arwyn did feel some pain while we were doing it. That would explain the avoidance, and again I told her that letting me know soner rather than later was a better way of dealing with things. However she was still keen to try Friday night.

Friday night she did hold up her end of the bargain. She got the kids to bed at a decent hour and we were able to spend some naked time together. By this time, I was in a better spot emotionally and it was possible to be relatively fun and playful. She’s still defensive about most types of intimate touching but I was able to accommodate and move on past that. More or less. My body needs a lot more practice in this new climate where there is a more extended time of nakedness preceding the Main Event. The Main Event lasted all of about 2 minutes for me, which isn’t exactly the road to get Arwyn where she wants. She was actually feeling pretty good and was trying to grind into me, but things just were not being cooperative and my whole orgasm just snuck up on me and ambushed me out of no where. We didn’t exactly hash that part of it out but she assured me that there was no pain involved this time. She did make an appointment with her gyn doctor on Thursday for sometime in May, as she hasn’t been in a couple of years but I think that pain issue always will be lurking around in the background.

Kind of a discombobulated post, here!

The Saturday morning routine of letting Arwyn sleep in was a lot easier on me as we do have the youngin’s trained to sleep or at least stay in bed until 7:00 and I was able to get breakfast and she was able to sleep in for a few hours. So hopefully that part of the arrangement made our time together time well-spent while we work on other things. So many issues…

So yeah, there is progress here. I think we have come a long way, but we have miles and miles to go. The good news is that we have a lifetime to get there and at least I feel like we’re traveling in the same direction together. Date night is a difficult thing to stick with just because it is that thing in the schedule that will be the first to get shucked if everything isn’t exactly right. I think there’s profitable lessons to be learned in working through whatever obstacles and issues there are instead of avoiding them. Avoidance has not worked for me in the past and working through things (especially the most difficult issues) seems to work better.

D.

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The Arrangement

April 17, 2008

I have a podcast in the can and ready to be uploaded to my blogger site.  But here’s a little background and a bit of a teaser to bring you up to speed…

After my last post, we did have a joint counseling session.  While I can’t say what we did talk about, I can tell you what we didn’t talk about, which was the fact that we had finally had sex two weeks before.  I do remember Arwyn asking whether she felt like she was getting anything out of the sessions and she thought she was.  So that’s good enough for me; I’m in.  The next night we had sex again!  WooHoo!  Only this time she did complain that there was some pain involved which she didn’t readily specify and wasn’t sure what it was butdid say that things did improve with a little change of position where she could get her legs wrapped all the way around me.  That was a new and novel position for us, as I was always too big for that to occur before.

Somehow the suggestion was made that maybe part of the problem is that we are so out of practice and need to do this on a more regular basis.  So I suggest that we just set it up on a weekly basis.  She agreed (afterall, she did say that she wanted it at least once per week) and said Wednesday nights would work best for her, because she didn’t have to work on Thursdays.  She asked if it would be okay if I got up with the boys and put them on the bus on Thursday mornings so she could sleep in.  That sounded good to me, so we made it a date.

How did the date go?

You’ll have to watch for and listen to the podcast to find out.

D.

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Merry Christmas!

December 24, 2007

I have the pleasure of teaching the Sunday before Christmas and the Sunday before New Years.  I wonder if anyone will show up.

 

The format will be extremely informal.  I just want to know where everyone is, spiritually speaking.  Are there challenges with the Christmas season that are unique?  What are they?  Why are they more challenging now than other times during the year?

 

What are you most looking forward to this season?  Maybe the holidays being over?

 

“After the holidays” is something that is heard a lot more this time of year.  People put off things until after the holidays.  They put off weight loss, starting a new habit or breaking an old one.  Conducting business this time of year can be a challenge.  Everything from construction projects to just getting in to see the doctor.  Try traveling by air for a good time.  It is difficult to get anything done’

 

In our church group we are every bit as much caught in the web.  Family night supper…not until after the holidays.  Choir practice…after the holidays.  Church office….closed for the holidays.

 

All in the name of celebrating the birth of Jesus.  But when Jesus was born, people still were living their daily lives.  They were in the midst of being counted for a tax declared by Caesar Augustus. They were tending vineyards and flocks, fishing, making and dying clothe, trading, bartering and selling.  

 

We talk all during the season of lent about anticipating the coming of the baby Jesus.  It’s an odd thing to talk about this.  Wasn’t he already born?  Why do we look forward to the birth of the baby all over again?  Why do we insist on putting Jesus back in the manger every year?

 

It is a good time of year to celebrate the coming of Christ.  We commemorate this event because it is when God came to live among us.  God loved the world so much the He came here to be one of us.  Why?  It wasn’t to bring some more laws and commandments.  He already sent Moses and the prophets for that.  It was not to set up an institution.  The Jews had a fine institution with a temple, synagogues, priests and other leaders to judge and interpret the law.  The scribes and Pharisees carefully preserved the laws and traditions during the exile and during various occupations and persecutions.

 

God did not need to come to Earth in order to set up a religion or a religious government.  There were already elders, priests, teachers of the law and civil authorities in place.  In fact, the Roman Empire afforded unprecedented opportunities in civil government, leadership and  peace and security.  There had already been prophets, judges and kings. 

 

The institutions and laws set up by God were not going to suffice.  God has a bigger plan which He had from the beginning.  God wanted His creation to be able to walk with Him as Adam did in the Garden of Eden.  People needed God but God wanted a people who would know Him.  A people who cared about knowing Him.  The only way to restore that relationship was to deal with the problem of sin which ruined that relationship in the first place.  That relationship can only be restored by somehow dealing with sin.  Jesus, God with Us, was the only solution that would do.

 

All the hoopla is about God being in relationship with us and us being in relationship with Him and each other.   It is about restoring a relationship broken by sin.  Without relationship, Christmas makes no sense.  It’s no accident that many broken relationships are often restored this time of year.  People who don’t speak to each other any other time of year seek to connect around Christmas.  Why?

 

I think it is because relationship is hard wired into our psyche.  We’re made in God’s image and God created humans especially to have relationship with Him and with each other.  Once relationship is broken (on account of sin) we are in a state of unrest until we can reconcile.  This time of year is about human relationship for most people but for God it is Him reconciling people to Himself.  And it all began with the baby in the manger.  It is all difficult to understand unless we consider how we feel about our own broken relationships.  In order to truly reconcile we need to physically connect and touch.  And that’s what God did.  He reached His hand out to us.  Will we reach back?  Will we return the embrace?  God leaves that entirely up to us, but He’s there whenever we decide to show up in the relationship. 

 

Through being in a human relationship where only one of us shows up at a time, I’ve come to understand how God feels when we do that to Him.  He understands rejection in the most intimate and personal way possible.  It happens to Him everyday on a massive, global scale.    

 

D.

[This morning the lesson went swimmingly well as the other folks really did bring their game on and we had some dandy discussion.  Even a few resolutions about getting along with hard-to-take relatives based on this lesson which I started out reading Matthew 1:12-25 (I think) focusing on "God with us" and what it means.]

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October 1, 2007

I have a post or two that I’ve started but none have been finished or developed enough to get published.  But at least I have the whole weekly weight thing I’m committed to, right?

 

I am at a tough spot as far as weight loss.  I suppose I should be thankful that I’m not gaining.  I finally got that 2 pound bag of chocolate chips out of the house…by eating them!  I have a serious weakness for chocolate of the semi-sweet variety and discovered these little fat mines while looking in the pantry for something else.  The butterscotch chips are not nearly as tempting but they are there.

 

I’ve spoken about the exercise ad nauseam but haven’t said much about my diet apart from cutting down to 1500 calories per day.  So watching Food Network for a few hours got me thinking about it. 

 

People will claim that eating healthy costs more than eating junk.  Pound-for-pound, that might actually be true, but portion size is one of the single biggest causes of obesity.  We like to super size all of our meals and I’ve been hideous about that in my previous life of gluttony.  I could pack in huge amounts of food, so I relied on cheap carbs to fill me up.  However, halving my calorie intake makes eating sensibly more economical and pays dividends, healthwise. 

 

Eating out is a serious challenge to anyone wanting to lose weight.  While I’m as happy eating at home as anywhere, my wife and kids love eating out.  So last week, we did give it a shot and went to the local Subway.  Not exactly high end, but it represented something I thought I could work into the plan.  And Subway is nice enough to plaster their nutritional information on their menu, the wrapping, their counter and even their napkins.  At around 350 calories for a 6″ sub, they aren’t too out of line as long as you don’t get the Doritos.  Instead of cheese and mayo, go for hot peppers and mustard.  And skip the drink.

 

I have just a few dietary staples that have been carrying me through the past 6 weeks or so.

 

Breakfast:

1 16 oz smoothie w/ plain nonfat yogurt, skim milk, srawberrries, banana and peaches OR 1 bowl of Cheerios with skim milk, strawberries or blackberries.

 

Lunch: 3 Tacquitos made with: corn tortillas, refried beans, ground turkey, tomatoes, garlic, onion, hot sauce and some sweet corn.  I figure these are about 120 calories each and I make 60 or so at a time and freeze them then reheat at 1 minute each.

 

Dinner: 1 hamburger made with:

Ground turkey, egg, worceshire sauce, minced garlic and oatmeal dressed out with tomato, onion and mustard on wheat bread.

 

Snacks consist of either an apple or grapes.

 

I can do this routine pretty much everyday, day after day.  Occasionally I’ll have a chicken breast instead of the hamburger and will do a salad of cucumbers, broccoli, tomato and onion with a fat free low cal dressing.

 

But as you can see, this is light on carbs and higher in protein and fiber than my old pasta/bread/potato based diet.

 

BTW, I did get my answer to Square1’s Question: What do you know about Islam? on my other blog, Unsolicited Advice.   It might be sort of disturbing, which wasn’t my initial intent but it sort of evolved into something else in its own.  Oh well.

 

D.

 

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That’s Me — Mr. McDreamy

January 9, 2007

 

The other day, I was driving home and listening to talk radio which is my usual fare. Sean Hannity is the one usually on when I drive home. It’s not that I’m particularly fond of him, it’s just that the other talk radio station craps out after dark, and the Christian stations are still into their music format until later. He and his female producer (or assistant of some sort) were talking about the Woman’s Day poll. He was appalled that his assistant admitted to being a compulsive flirt. “Does your husband know about this? Is he okay with this? I don’t believe it! You flirt with strange men? All the time?”

 

Regular listeners will know that debating anything with Hannity is next to impossible because he rarely gives the other person time to breathe let alone respond. I got home in the midst of this little discussion and it sounded slightly interesting. According to the reported results, over half of the women who responded to the survey said they either wouldn’t get married to the same guy again or were not sure. Actually, if you look at the poll, you’ll see that it was a pretty even split, statistically between those who said “yes” and “no”. the “not sure” crowd was thrown with the “no” crowd to give the story some legs. I one puts them with the “yes crowd, you have ¾ that say they’d at least consider doing it again. That’s not too shabby, really.

 

This story, for me, should have ended right there with me turning off the radio and getting out of the truck and going in the house. But it didn’t. This story had legs all right, and it was splashing and running. Later that night, Arwyn was watching TV and I happened to be with her when Access Hollywood ran with it. I’m surprised Arwyn watched the story, especially with me right there. This would be a prime time to ask her if she’d do it all over again but let’s be perfectly real and honest; we both knew the answer. Neither of us would marry the other again, knowing what we do now. That doesn’t make it all bad. It’s a lot like college, basic training or high school. They were tremendously important times, and sometimes very enjoyable. But that doesn’t mean you’d make the exact same decision again or that you want to do it again.

 

dempsyWe actually did have a short conversation about the poll, though. It had to do with the question about who the sexiest man in America is. Since show was all over ABC, there was considerable discussion about “Mr. McDreamy” from Grey’s Anatomy. I actually had to look it up to see that it was Patrick Dempsey. I know she watches that show so I asked her about it. She said she wouldn’t consider Mr. McDreamy sexy, at least in his portrayal on the show, because he sleeps with everyone and is a compulsive cheater. I’ve seen the show a time or two myself and I never thought he was all that bad.

 

I tried to think of a way to steer this little conversation around but could see no way to do it without it resulting in a big hurtful blow-up. Mainly, what is a guy who is not getting sex from his wife expected to do when she is no longer interested? He’s just supposed to continue living in a state of involuntary celibacy? I mean a guy like that is probably tempted all the time.

 

There just wasn’t any traction to this whole line of conversation, so I dropped it. I’m not really looking to cheat and I don’t look like Mr. McDreamy so I’m not constantly being tempted by women throwing themselves at me. As nice as that would seem, it’s through the grace of God that I’m spared that sort of thing. That, plus my rather prickly, withdrawn and introverted personality. People talk about being antisocial as if it were a bad thing!

 

FTN (Who does happen to look like Mr. McDreamy) also caught the bit about the story saying a third of people sleeping at opposite ends of the bed while the poll definitely says opposite side of the bed. Yeah, for a minute there I thought my Freak Show Franchise For Sleeping was in serious jeopardy! There is no way 1/3 of all women sleep at opposite ends of the bed like Arwyn does. In fact, no one else has come forward to confess that they do this.

 

Someone asked why I don’t simply switch up, so we are at the same end, again. Then Arwyn would simply adjourn to the couch which she does sometimes, anyway. So my snoring is a pretty big part of it. I thought maybe stopping smoking might lessen that, but apparently not. I might as well puff away. I have absolutely no problems with Arwyn’s snoring. And she can be loud sometimes. But I like it. I’m twisted that way in that I like hearing the sounds of her breathing, snoring and assorted other noises. I derive comfort from it. This is clearly not the case for her as well as many other women who opt for alternate sleeping arrangements.

 

Someone else mentioned sleep apnea, which can be life threatening. At the very least, it is annoying. At least I notice that I haven’t woken up with a headache like I used to, so maybe not smoking has been helpful enough that way. If I’m going to die from anything at any time, I would just as soon go in my sleep. Seriously, none of us gets to pick exactly how we’re going to go, but dying in my sleep gets my vote every time. I suppose dying while having an orgasm (with a partner )would be a good way to go, but those odds are far too long to even think about in this house. No, sleep gets my vote if I’m allowed one. And then I can dream about what it might be like to be referred to as “Mr. McDreamy.”

 

D.

 

 

 

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What’s My Accent?

November 24, 2006
What American accent do you have?
Your Result: The Inland North

You may think you speak “Standard English straight out of the dictionary” but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like “Are you from Wisconsin?” or “Are you from Chicago?” Chances are you call carbonated drinks “pop.”

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A Political Screed

November 8, 2006

 

Amazing how people around the world really get caught up in American politics.  Foreign countries everywhere are watching and wondering and hoping.

 

Who do you think Osama Bin Laden is rooting for from his cave?  You remember, the guy who orchestrated that little attack here a few years ago?  The one that had people throwing themselves off the top of a burning building?

 

Emily was wondering how anyone could vote Republican in this election.  Just for the record, I did not vote Republican. I didn’t vote Democrat, either.  I simply couldn’t hold my nose tight enough to vote for either party so I did other things instead, like getting food for my family and materials for work.  I’m not associated with any really close races, and after looking at the ballot concluded I didn’t have a horse in the race at all.  And when I think about it, I have not for a long time.

 

In my other blog, I’m documenting a spiritual journey that took me overseas in the early 1980’s.  I remember back then, Europeans thought Ronald Reagan was a madman who was going to blow up the planet with nuclear weapons.  He was provoking the Soviets at every turn, actually moving more Pershing II missiles into Germany while I was there, giving rise to the Green Party.

 

I saw the posters in East Germany, making Reagan and the U.S. out to be murderers and baby killers.  I actually did crash a little Communist convention and bought some anti-nuke pins for the heck of it.  But I also saw a people terribly oppressed and afraid who lived in darkness as opposed to the light and gaiety just on the other side of that wall.  Reagan’s resolve broke the Soviets as much as it drove them insane.

 

The party of Ronald Reagan exists no more than the party of Truman or John F. Kennedy.  I do feel betrayed by the Republican Party.  At the same time, the Democratic Party has declared war on Christianity and Christian culture.  They preach tolerance while being intolerant.  But if the party of John Kerry (you wanted THAT buffoon as president?) can give me a compelling enough argument, I’m listening.  But keep in mind, I was one of those morons he talked about who did join the military.  I should have studied harder.

 

In 1980, Reagan invited Democrats who felt disaffected by Jimmy Carter’s Democrats to join him.  He recalled the greatness of Franklin D. Roosevelt and how he, too, felt like the party had left him.  Today, I’m feeling like the GOP left me.  However, unlike the Ronald Reagan who found a home among Republicans, I don’t have a political home.  The modern Democrats have vacated the middle entirely.  They have no room for Christians who might hold the Bible and the teachings therein to be sacred.  Because I see Jesus as an important force in my life, I am seen as a religious nut.  I recognize the danger of an adversary who wants us all dead, and I’m seen as a war monger.

 

Joe Lieberman voted against G.W. on almost every issue except for one: Iraq.  The Democrats tried to run one of the few moderates left in their party off because of one single issue.

 

I don’t like the war either, and welcome a constructive change in strategy.  However, retreat would not be viewed as one of them.  We can not afford to vacate that region under any circumstances when there is that wacko right next door in Iran testing missiles and developing a nuclear bomb!  Can we afford to leave Iraq to it’s own ways when it is next door to the largest sponsor of terrorism in the world?

 

I do feel the war was mucked up from the outset.  That first year, instead of reconstruction there was a move to punish everybody who was in Saddam’s party which means everybody with the knowledge and ability to make the government work.  They disbanded the military, sending some 100,000 men home, with their weapons with nothing but time on their hands.  And then there was Abu Graib.  That evil place should have been razed to the ground.  Now we had armed people sitting around with all sorts of time on their hands who were pissed off. 

 

We can’t stay but we also can’t leave.  It’s an unholy mess, and it really is fine with me if people want to punish Republicans for it although it does rest more squarely on GW than congress.  However, don’t be fooled into thinking that the Democrats are going to rescue us from this war.  Osama went after the U.S. because he thought we were weak and this is going to reinforce his opinion.  You will see more fighting than ever before once Democrats gain a foothold.  Now, the terrorists will smell blood and will take pleasure in shedding more of it.  The more Democrats opine about how poorly the war is going, the more motivated the terrorists will be in finalizing their victory.  Those terrorists want the Democrats to win very, very badly.  This is why October was such a violent month in Iraq!  Just like the bombs in Spain produced a government of appeasement, so too the violence of last October will shift the U.S. government.  Now they can press their advantage.

 

Brace yourself for a serious bloodbath, as the terrorists try to make things so bad as to make people cry out for GW’s impeachment. 

 

I don’t blame people for voting for the Republicans.  While there are reservations about the war from the GOP, they are not talking about the timed or scheduled withdrawals.  They see the bigger picture a bit more realistically and it is a painful picture it would be easier to deny.  However, I also don’t blame people for NOT voting for the Republicans as their sins are many and they deserve punishment.  For those who sincerely believe in the cause of the modern Democratic Party and their socialist agenda, I don’t blame them for voting their conscience.  

 

I think we have an amazing system of government which is probably why the world is so fascinated with it.  We don’t have military coups, or have our ex-presidents shot and while there is considerable acrimony nowadays, there’s not going to be people chopping off other people’s heads because of one side drawing a cartoon about the other.  I’ve watched some proceedings of the British and Australian Parliaments on C-Span and wouldn’t trade our system for theirs for anything. 

 

Okay, that’s enough of my political screed for awhile.  No matter what party wins, I still have to get up in the morning and go to work and pay taxes. 

 

D.

 

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Thoughts on D/s

September 25, 2006

Cinnimon, of all people, is ruminating about D/s, specifically the power exchange aspect of it and wonders, “why?”  It’s not as if there isn’t enough variety in vanilla sex.  Why are some people attracted to a dominant or submissive role?  A while back some guys on the chastity listserve covered this, and a good number responded by saying “Who cares?  Just enjoy it!”

 

 

And for many, this is a perfectly legitimate response.  In fact, a sub might be better off if they just go with their feelings rather than thinking too much.  But some of us are unable to shut off our brains like that.  Although one of the hallmarks of being in subspace is pushing most thoughts out and giving in to the sensations without analyzing.

 

 

So, I’ll share a few of my thoughts on domspace and subspace.  First off, I need to say I am not a very good sub.  Seriously.  And over analyzing might be the reason for my poor performance as a sub.  Or perhaps because my wife isn’t remotely like a domina.  But I don’t think it is fair to blame her for my shortcomings as a sub.  

 

 

Subspace to me, is getting out of a body’s head and into the feelings of the moment.  It is surrendering and giving over control.  And Cinn is correct in her assumption that it does involve a relatively high level of trust.  If I want to get into subspace, I need to get past my head and let myself be taken over by the sensations of being dominated.

 

However…

 

 

The only reason I’m able to do that is because I’m giving myself over to someone I trust; me.  At one time it might have been Arwyn but even then I couldn’t get lost in it.  I was still thinking too much.  So those folks I cited above were actually closer to it by not worrying about why.  In fact, sex is all about getting lost in the moment.

 

 

Domspace is a bit more cerebral, but not much.  It still involves getting lost in the moment.  But it involves a bit more action, planning, imagination and being in tune with the one being dominated.  While a sub, during a scene, can surrender and concentrate on self, the person doing the dominating needs to be observant of the sub’s reactions and responses.  And getting in tune with those responses is where the appeal lies.  Breathing, sweat, noises, twitches, flinches, and squirming around are all sources of feedback for a dom.  And domspace involves feeding off of that feedback.  So in one one sense, being a sub involves being in tune with your own feedback.  There’s an intricate dance between the two partners, one providing one kind of sensory input which gets translated into something more intimate.

 

 

Thing is, I am not really into dominant women.  Really and truly I am drawn towards women who have a more submissive nature.  However, there is a sort of fantasy of having a quiet, demure woman get turned on in the bedroom and become more assertive.  But this sort of dynamic does not seem to occur often.  The sort of women 8 am attracted to are not terribly assertive in many areas.  Arwyn is a case in point, where she neither takes the initiative nor does she willingly accept initiative taken by me.  Which means the trust probably isn’t there.

 

 

And this is why I am not probably ever going to be a very good submissive.  I have the capacity to give up some control and power, but it is measured and limited.  I am somewhat keen to explore more, but I can not say that I am into the whole spanking, sissy boy, humiliation, painslut scene.  I flat-out don’t like pushy women or domineering women.  While it might seem Arwyn dominates me, she really does not.   But neither does she respond well to being dominated.  Which begs the question:  Why does there have to be any power exchange at all?  Can’t it just be shared?

 

 

I’m willing to do that, but the concept of equitable sharing is simply not there with Arwyn.  I like how Christian Husband recently described a sort of feedback loop where the couple feeds off of each other’s goodwill and pleasure.  However, like his wife, Arwyn does not see things that way.  She expects things to be provided and done no matter what the feelings while not wanting any expectations of reciprocation placed on her part.  I am expected to provide while I am allowed to expect nothing in return.  

 

 

And this is what brings many of us into power exchange.  Even if we may not necessarily be good subs, it is preferable to have a more explicit arrangement.  Since you’re going to be determining when, if, how and where we have sex, why not go ahead and have me wear a cock cage to reinforce this arrrangement?

 

Because then it would actually shift responsibility entirely and explicitly to where it belongs: the one who is doing the dictating.  But she wants to dictate without really having the label of dictator.

 

 

Okay, back to D/s…

 

 

By letting Satan hold the key, I get a chance to at least get a small taste of the power exchange with someone else who is keen to explore the other side of it.  I get to see what it might be like having someone who might actually devote a bit of time towards thinking about the state of my caged member and not label me a wierd pervert.  I can let go just a bit.  I don’t have to work so hard domming myself.

 

 

The appeal to me has always been in the contradictions.  I can feel pleasure and pain at the same time.  Anticipation and frustration join together to produce a different sort of pleasure.  It’s so much a part of being in my head while losing my head.  I want in and I want out at the same time.  That’s what it has always been about for me, where my mind and body are stretched and tested just a bit.  Having you all along for the ride makes the trip a lot less lonely!  So thanks for reading and letting me share.

 

Hopefully I haven’t totally messed up the topic!

 

D.

 

 

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Timelock Codes (Lockword encryptions) can Be Posted…

September 9, 2006

On my blogger site here. Read the instructions and the directions and all should be well!

They can also be posted under THIS post for those not wanting to go over there.

D.

Update: I put a new poll over on the other site.  Probably the last reason not to switch from blogger entirely is blog polls, which I occasionally use.

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Making up for lost time…

March 21, 2006

FTN’s kid post inspired me to add my tidbit. But read his first. It’s funnier and more entertaining.

My oldest (7 y.o.) has a hard time waking up for the bus, which arrives at 6:40 a.m. He drags, and resists and will do anything to stay in bed and stay asleep. It’s like he simply can NOT keep his eyes open.

But come the weekend or any school break…

He simply MUST be up at 5:30 a.m. It never fails. I ask him why he can’t sleep in once in awhile and he just gives me a look as if I’m the one who is crazy.

Failure to get up with him has resulted in:

- Him getting his brother up, which involves considerable yelling and screaming
- An entire bunch of peeled bananas piled in the center of the living room.
- Him feeding the fish an entire container of fissh food
- Finger painting with food…usually grape jelly. on the carpet.
-Drinking maple syrup
-Eating cold pizza. Actually that’s not so bad, as I’ve done that a time or two.

The one time he slept in until 8:00 a.m., we were so nervous we couldn’t sleep! We had to keep checking on him to make sure he was still breathing!

D.