Going for Broke

08/25/2005

Thursday

Day 13*

Something that I didn’t say yesterday was that I had decided to extend my stay in the cage for another 3 days and go for the record. I figured that I had come this far, I might as well go for broke. And that’s what I did…I went for broke.

Despite being up late last night twiddling with the computer, I awoke several times and finally ended up awake at 5 a.m. and waiting for Arwyn’s alarm to go off at 5:45. Actually she was starting to stir a bit before that. As soon as the alarm went off I just had to hug and cuddle with her. I *had* to! I’ve been mightily resentful of her brushing me off in the morning. But this morning, I got at least a full 2 minutes of hugging and kissing once I told her I would pack the oldest’s luch while she was in the shower. It was worth the effort.

As we were hugging in a nice warm embrace, I could feel myself straining at the cage. Not enough of that feeling lately. While embracing, I heard and felt a ’snap’. Uh oh. I waited for some excessively painful pinching but it never came.

The CB3000 is constructed of an extremely durable polycarbonate plastic. However, it is also contructed in two halves, which are glued together and the glue sometimes give way. I had the same thing happen a year or so ago, and at least one other time with the Curve. Using a product called “Liquid Weld” seemed to repair it best in the past.

In anycase, as soon as Arwyn jumped into the shower, I jumped into the garage with the bolt cutters to get the lock off. I tried to think of ways to leave ti on, but it was totally halved and would need to be welded together. I was SO ready to come right then, but waited. I made luch for the boys, then myself. Arwyn and I hugged some more, then I got in the shower. It felt really good, albeit a bit foriegn without the cage. But I didn’t go for it. I abstained and decided to alter the nature of the remainder of my experience on this adventure by seeing how a guy without a cage might hold up with no sex and no wanking. Or maybe Arwyn will be ready for me like I’m ready for her!LOL!

I’ve only known the Lioness for a few weeks and she is quite attractive. But she is a consumate whiner. These things have only become issues over the past few days, so I really wasn’t trying to pull a fast one on my blog readers. This is just the way things have played out.

Unlike Square1, I will read blogs of cheaters to see the other side of things. They always seem so attractive for a time. Sometimes a really LONG time! But all of them, without exception, turn to shit eventually. Alex and Rod took their blogs down without explaination. Salvatori got a venerial disease and passed it to his wife. I have a couple of regulars still on the blogroll recovering from affairs (either having one themselves, or having a spouse have one or both). They are all very instructive.

Maybe I’ll be the one exception, you think?

I don’t think so either. I’ve thought about asking Arwyn to set me up with one of her girl friends as she has a couple who are HL married to LL guys. I thought this would a be a novel solution that acknowledged the needs of the partner while avoiding skulking around in the shadows.

Why wouldn’t a LL partner go for this, especially if they are so put off by sex? Let the HL have their fun with a trustworthy friend while the LL does something enjoyable with another similarly LL partner. I’d go for that. If sex isn’t that important, why would the LL people try or insist on keeping their partner in a state of involuntary celibacy?

D.